-.- if i was lesbian things would be so much easier. SO much

Getting real stressed already. And it's not even about schoolwork(YET), fuck my life.
It's all in my brain la. I can control what I'm feeling, but I just refuse to think positively.
I think I shouldn't care. But I feel bad? Like so fucking bad. I'm for sure gonna lose this friend. Ah fuck la, I hate this.

I know I'm not fucking good looking but please fucking stop trying to be good friends with me so that you can show your other fucked up friends that you are prettier than me.

I'm a hypocrite cos' I want to keep the peace. You're a fucking hypocrite cos' you wanna gain something out of it.

Stop trying to act all righteous cos' you know as well as I do that you're a fucking scheming bitch. You're as self-centered as any narcissist out there so stop acting like you're the most caring and humble person on earth.

Stop acting like you know stuff cos' you don't.

Stop complaining about how stressed up and fucked up your life is cos' firstly, you chose this life and secondly, you fucking deserve it.

Stop thinking that you're more superior than others cos' the fact is that you're not.

And you're actually quite dumb for a JC student so don't go around criticising your school mates.

Oh by the way, your English is fucking horrible so stop trying to type and talk like you're a pro at it.
Seriously, stop, cos' you'll just be humiliating yourself.
And FYI, people don't have to know "cheem" words to be good at English. All they have to do is to show you that their grammar is way better than yours and they fucking win you hands down. 

STOP BEING A FUCKING DRAMA QUEEN.

Don't call me your best friend because you don't fucking tell me anything. The only things you ever tell me are those that if you told your other friends, you'd lose face.

Stop giving credit to people for the help I fucking gave you, you ungrateful slut.

And I may have more boyfriends than you, but you're a lot cheaper than I am. Know why? Cos' you've mindfucked way more guys than I have and got away with it.

You're a piece of shit, really. And a fucking BIMBOTIC one at that.

Don't act like you're the better friend cos' you're not. You can put on a pretty mask in front of people but I can see right through to your ugly face. 

Deciding to be your friend was the worst decision of my life. Since you fucked me up, I'll fuck you up too. Understand, bitch? I'll fuck you up real good.

Fucking demoralised.

Tan Jiazwan,

you'd better take damn good care of your current girlfriend.
You'd better love her PROPERLY and treat her like she ACTUALLY MEANS SOMETHING TO YOU.
Cos' if you don't, you're a FUCKING BIG IDIOT, understand a not?

AND LET HER TALK TO YOU ABOUT HER OWN STUFF. STOP TALKING TO HER ABOUT YOUR OWN THINGS 24/7 BECAUSE NOT EVERY FUCKING THING IS ABOUT YOU.

Don't try to escape from fights, SOLVE THE DAMN FUCKING PROBLEM.

You don't give a shit about me never mind, but if you screw up your current relationship, you can go bang wall. Cos' if you fuck it up, it will only mean one thing: You don't know how to be a boyfriend. And that will make you one huge fucking failure as a GUY.

Everything's changing and it's about time I fucking started getting used to it.

I fucking don't wanna even contact you anymnore. Fuck man, from now on, I'm not gonna fucking care already. When I tell you I still like you, its like.. NOTHING. It's like to you it's like "whatever la". FUCK. And then you can still make fun of me and say, "Awww. so miss me ah?" when I ask to go out with you. Seriously, FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK. I RATHER KILL MYSELF A MILLION TIMES OVER THAN TO KEEP TORTURING MYSELF OVER YOU. FUCK. AND YOU LAZY OR DON'T WANNA GO OUT JUST FUCKING SAY. DON'T GIVE ME SOME FUCKING EXCUSE LATER THAT YOU NEED TO GO HOME EARLY TO REST OR THAT YOUR FRIENDS EXPECT YOU TO MEET UP WITH THEM THAT DAY. FUCK. I'M TIRED. SICK AND TIRED, OKAY? IF YOU CAN'T SEE THAT THEN FUCK, YOU NEVER KNEW ME. YOU NEVER EVER KNEW ME. EVEN MY FUCKING ONLINE FRIEND KNOWS ME WAY BETTER THAN YOU'LL EVER KNOW ME. AND I DON'T KNOW YOU. I DON'T WANNA KNOW YOU EITHER. I FUCKING HATE THIS. I HATE TO FUCKING COVER UP HOW I FEEL IN FRONT OF YOU. I HATE IT. AND I HATE IT WHEN I'M ANGRY WITH YOU BUT I JUST DON'T WANNA SHOW YOU. I WAS NEVER IN YOUR LIFE, WAS I? SO I'M GONNA GET OUT OF YOUR FUCKING SIGHT FROM NOW ON.

THE ONE PERSON I DO NOT WANT TO FUCKING REMEMBER ANYMORE.

What the HELL is fucking wrong with my voice.

I forgot how MOTHERFUCKING GOOD X Japan is.